What they say when they see me versus what God says!

 What they say when they see me versus what God says! 

When I Arrived at work two coworkers told me that a different coworker called me racist , I’m in shock that someone hates me so much that they would lie about something so serious. I’m hurt and I don’t know how to handle it. I told the shift supervisor but this is ridiculous. It might be time for me to leave sooner than I planned. I really feel hurt about this. What she did is defamation of character and I don’t understand why she would go so far to hurt me.

I've been working on my relationship with God. I'm trying to become a better person and I’m learning how to respond differently. I believe that I’m being tested and I don’t know if I pass the test but I am trying and I did respond differently than I would’ve in the past. All my life I’ve been a person that speaks my mind and I’ve been told that I’m intimidating and mean. I don’t know how to change how people see me but I want to react differently when someone has an issue with me. I hope and pray that in the future people say how they feel without going overboard and making accusations that are so ridiculous and hurtful. 

My eyes are open and I know God loves me and sees me as a queen and I’m a part of God's kingdom. God has provided for me when I don’t deserve it and has protected me from all the weapons of my enemies. My past, present, and future is blessed beyond measure. God has loved me when I was too depressed to love myself and protected my children when I was not able to. God knows my strength and my weakness, and he hid my weakness from my enemies. God has made me in his image and count the hairs on my head, God has shaped me in the palm of his hand I know I’ll always be safe in his arms.

“The Lord gave me this message: “I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.””

Jeremiah 1:4-5 NLT

https://bible.com/bible/116/jer.1.4-5.NLT

“O Lord, you have searched me [thoroughly] and have known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up [my entire life, everything I do]; You understand my thoughts from afar. [Matt 9:4; John 2:24, 25] You scrutinize my path and my lying down, And You are intimately acquainted with all my ways. Even before there is a word on my tongue [still unspoken], Behold, O Lord, You know it all. [Heb 4:13] You have enclosed me behind and before, And [You have] placed Your hand upon me.”

Psalms 139:1-5 AMP

https://bible.com/bible/1588/psa.139.1-5.AMP

Dear God, please help me forgive people that are harmful to me. God please give me direction on what to do next and show me when it’s time to move forward, I don’t want to move in anger lord teach me how to move when you say move. Teach me how to fight back the way you say fight, and how to be at peace and still when I need to be. God you’re all mighty and powerful so I know that anything I pray you’ll answer and bring healing. In this time I ask you Jesus to heal my mind and my heart, remove anger, remove sadness, remove bitterness, remove unforgiving. God please replace those feelings with joy, peace, kindness, a forgiving spirit, love and let your light shine in me and through me at all times.

In Jesus Name Amen.

“Rejoice always and delight in your faith; be unceasing and persistent in prayer; in every situation [no matter what the circumstances] be thankful and continually give thanks to God; for this is the will of God for you in Christ Jesus.”

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 AMP

https://bible.com/bible/1588/1th.5.18.AMP 

“Be angry [at sin—at immorality, at injustice, at ungodly behavior], yet do not sin; do not let your anger [cause you shame, nor allow it to] last until the sun goes down. [Ps 4:4] And do not give the devil an opportunity [to lead you into sin by holding a grudge, or nurturing anger, or harboring resentment, or cultivating bitterness]. The thief [who has become a believer] must no longer steal, but instead he must work hard [making an honest living], producing that which is good with his own hands, so that he will have something to share with those in need. Do not let unwholesome [foul, profane, worthless, vulgar] words ever come out of your mouth, but only such speech as is good for building up others, according to the need and the occasion, so that it will be a blessing to those who hear [you speak]. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God [but seek to please Him], by whom you were sealed and marked [branded as God’s own] for the day of redemption [the final deliverance from the consequences of sin]. [Eph 1:13, 14; Phil 3:20, 21] Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor [perpetual animosity, resentment, strife, fault-finding] and slander be put away from you, along with every kind of malice [all spitefulness, verbal abuse, malevolence]. Be kind and helpful to one another, tender-hearted [compassionate, understanding], forgiving one another [readily and freely], just as God in Christ also forgave you.”

Ephesians 4:26-32 AMP

https://bible.com/bible/1588/eph.4.31.AMP