Healing from the inside out

 My Health 

On March 1, 2025 I started a fast because I have a chronic condition called Hidradenitis suppurativa. Hidradenitis suppurativa is  A chronic skin condition featuring lumps in places such as the armpits or groin.

The skin lesions develop as a result of inflammation and infection of sweat glands.  This condition features pea- to marble-sized lumps under the skin that can be painful and tend to enlarge and drain pus. They usually occur where skin rubs together. There's no known cure for hidradenitis suppurativa so I learned to live with it and manage it with help and treatment from my doctors. 

I started getting sick when I was 15 years old, at the time I couldn’t find a doctor to diagnose me so I would get sick then get batter, then sick again and repeat. I decided to go to John H. Stroger, Jr. Hospital of Cook County

Hospital in Chicago, Illinois. I was just a teen around 17 years old and I was tired of being sick so I went to the hospital alone hoping someone would help me. After going back and forth to appointments a year later I was diagnosed with (HS). I didn’t understand what was happening to me. When I was a kid my mom was dying from breast cancer and I was trying to figure a way to help myself. 

I’m now 40 years old and only this year have I been open about my diagnosis, I've been embarrassed and also mad about it so I never talk about it. In the past year I have had a lot of flare up and have had to call off work more then I won’t to. I’m now on FMLA at work because of my health. I have so much pain sometimes it’s hard to do anything. 

I wrote a letter to God about what I’m going through mentally because of my health, and it said…..

Dear God 

I don’t know how to pray for my healing but I know I'm tired of being sick and in pain. I don’t understand why you choose me for this cross but I believe in time I’ll understand. Lord Jesus I need more strength and patience to endure everything you have for me. God I want my life to be a blessing and a testimony to help others and I want my boys to look up to me and respect me because of the example I show with my life. God I don’t want my health to control me and define me. I want your words and your will for my life to define me. Jesus I’m sorry if I have made my illness lord over my life but I want you to take full control and be the God over my life that I need. I surrender all my pain, complaining, laziness and mental distress that hidradenitis suppurativa have caused and God wash me with your blood from head to toe, give me peace, comfort, joy, energy and a sound mind to move forward each day and walk in my purpose you have for me. God be a light unto my feet and give me direction on where to go and when to move. Let me hear your voice when you speak and recognize the enemy when he brings distraction in Jesus Christ name Amen!

“My wound is severe, and my grief is great. My sickness is incurable, but I must bear it.”

Jeremiah 10:19 NLT

https://bible.com/bible/116/jer.10.19.NLT

After writing my letter to God he spoke to me and I believe God told me to start a fast march 1,2025 so I did. Fasting has not been easy and I have made some mistakes along the way but I do believe that I’m on the right track and if I keep it up I believe I’ll have less pain and flare up. I’m not fasting just for temporary relief, I'm trying to change my lifestyle and the way I eat daily. I’m drinking water daily, I’m eating fruit and vegetables all day and eating meat for dinner only. It’s hard but I feel the difference and it has only been 13 days. I believe if I keep putting in the effort I’ll be able to do this long term and then make it a lifestyle. 

““Please, test your servants for ten days, and let us be given some vegetables to eat and water to drink. Then let our appearance and the appearance of the young men who eat the king’s finest food be observed and compared by you, and deal with your servants in accordance with what you see.” So the man listened to them in this matter and tested them for ten days. At the end of ten days it seemed that they were looking better and healthier than all the young men who ate the king’s finest food.”

Daniel 1:12-15 AMP

https://bible.com/bible/1588/dan.1.15.AMP

My fast is a little like Daniel’s, I eat vegetables and fruits for most of the day and I eat meat for dinner. It’s been hard and I can’t say that there’s a big difference in my health but I feel healthier. I’m hoping to change this new way of eating into a lifestyle. I want to become healthier mentally, spiritually, and physically so I can live longer. My prayer is to grow generational blessings not just wealth and money but complete and total healing from mental illness, physical illness and spiritual bondage. I want wholeness from the inside out for my life and every generation after me in Jesus name Amen! 

“A good man leaves an inheritance to his children’s children, And the wealth of the sinner is stored up for [the hands of] the righteous.”

Proverbs 13:22 AMP

https://bible.com/bible/1588/pro.13.22.AMP

Check out this Snapchat video about Hidradenitis suppurativa. This Woman is very brave showing and telling her testimony. 

https://snapchat.com/t/dL8VbnnY