When It Rains… The Flood That Opened My Ears

 The Flood: A Jonah Moment in Real Life

There’s a saying that goes, “When it rains, it pours.” I’m not sure what the original author meant by that, but in my case, I believe I'm experiencing rain both natural and supernatural. 🌧️

Right now, my life feels like a flood. God is raining down fire—literally and figuratively. 🔥 It’s been storm after storm. I live in Iowa, and we just had heavy rainstorms that flooded streets and neighborhoods. Some people had damage to their homes or businesses. Others, like me, suffered car damage. 🚗

Honestly, I didn’t know how serious flood warnings were. When the storm started, I had to go to work. I told myself, “If I leave now, I’ll beat the rain.” That was crazy  thinking! God was warning me: Wait. Don’t rush. Don’t worry about being late. Just wait. But I didn’t listen.

I drove right into the flood. The water was deeper than I thought. My car was swept away, and the engine stopped immediately. Some kind neighbors helped push it out, but by the next morning, the city had it towed away. I was devastated—not just because of the car—but because I didn’t listen to God.

In that moment, I realized something powerful:

🗣️ God has been speaking to me for a long time… I just haven’t been listening.

God is telling me:

Taji, use your gift of discernment. Stay focused. Know My voice.

I’ve been praying for direction—and God has been giving it. This experience reminded me of Jonah and the fish and Noah and the ark.

Both Jonah and Noah heard from God.

Jonah ran.

Noah obeyed.

Right now, I’ve been acting like Jonah—hearing God’s voice but letting fear and doubt stop me. But I want to be more like Noah: obedient right away. 🙌🏾

Yes, it’s still raining in my life.

Yes, I’m still in the flood.

But I believe that this storm is washing away sin, fear, doubt—and preparing me for a harvest. 🌸🌾

When this flood is over, the flowers will bloom.

My testimony will overflow.

Every generation attached to me will reap the blessing.

And I thank you in advance, God. 🙏🏾

My Prayer 🙏🏾

God, help me obey Your Word and Your will.

Help me recognize Your voice when You’re leading me.

Remove all fear, doubt, and anxiety.

Give me the strength to submit to Your plan.

I want to walk in my purpose.

I want to fulfill my calling.

I trust You—with my life, my children, my home, my finances, my health, my mind, and my heart.

Make me more like Noah.

Let me trust You fully, even when it doesn’t make sense.

Let my life be a testimony of what only You can do.

When I feel lost or confused, open my eyes and ears.

Be a light to my path and a lamp to my feet.

Move in every part of my life—my home, my mind, my finances, and especially my children.

And God, help me recognize the enemy’s traps.

Help me fight spiritual warfare with clarity and strength.

Let me hear Your voice above every other voice.

Give me discernment, wisdom, and power.

I believe You for it, God.

Jesus, I love You with all my heart.

I trust Your plan.

Not my will but, Your will be done.

In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Scriptures to Reflect On

📖 Jonah 1:17 – Jonah 2:1–10

📖 Genesis 6–9 (Noah and the Ark)

📖 Isaiah 30:21 – “Your ears will hear a word behind you…”

👉 Isaiah 30:21 AMP

📖 Revelation 3:20 – “I stand at the door and knock…”

👉 Revelation 3:20 AMP

📖 John 16:13 – “He will guide you into all truth…”

👉 John 16:13 AMP

🌧️🌸 If you’re in a flood season, I’m praying for you. God’s voice is louder than the storm. Stay tuned — I’ll be sharing updates on how this season turns into a testimony.

Vision Board 2025 – My Spiritual Reset

 

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Vision Board 2025 – My Spiritual Reset

At the top of 2025, I had a vision and a clear idea of what I wanted for my new year. But life happened — hard, fast, and unexpectedly. In the middle of it all, I knew I needed a spiritual reset.

This was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.

I decided to reset my goals, focus on discipline, and push forward with the dreams and purpose God placed in me. In the past, whenever I fell off track, I would just give up or say, “I’ll try again some other time.” But not this time. I’m determined to work hard and reach my destiny — no matter the cost.

This week at church, I opened my heart to my pastor about the crossroad I’m standing at. My passion is to work in ministry, focus on my blog, and help women — but I also have to work to provide for my family. It’s hard and humbling to say: I’m not making enough to even pay my bills right now.

But I’m not giving up. I’m staying in prayer. And I created this vision board — not for my blog or brand — but for me. For my personal growth. My heart. My healing. My future.

I pray it blesses you and encourages you to write your vision too.

In Jesus Christ’s name, amen.

“Then the Lord answered me and said, ‘Write the vision and engrave it plainly on [clay] tablets, so that the one who reads it will run.’”

— Habakkuk 2:2 AMP

Read it here

https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/1AjZc3zM8jNAHaATDB_k86LlQi9m0VR2YMD9VuXGV0xc/edit?usp=drivesdk. 

(My Vision Board was made with google slides )

Fear of Becoming Older

 Fear of Becoming Older

Dedicated to my mom, Robbin Edmonds

🌹 Sunrise: April 15,1963 | Sunset: June 29, 2006 🌹

Mom, it’s been 19 years—June 29, 2006, feels like yesterday. I lost my best friend, and the pain still lingers. I miss you so much. You never had the chance to meet my children—your grandkids—or see me chase my dreams. You were such an amazing woman. You died too soon, only 43 years old, before you could truly live the life you deserved.

I was just 21. I still needed you then, and honestly, I still need you now.

But I smile when I see the things you taught me showing up in my life. Sometimes I pause and say, “Wow, I remember Mom told me about this.” That brings me joy. I hope I’m making you proud. I know you’re watching over me. Rest well, Mom. I’ll see you when I’m done down here.

Love you forever,

Taji

When my mom died, my biggest fear was not living past 43. I feared dying young like her—before I could become successful, before I could leave an inheritance for my children. I feared being too sick by 40 to take care of them. The day after her funeral, I gave birth to my oldest son, and my sisters and I were homeless. I had no direction, no guidance—just grief, survival, and confusion.

Fear ruled my life for a long time. I wasted years worrying instead of living. I didn’t enjoy my youth because I was too busy being afraid. And now I look back and wonder… What was I so afraid of? I could have been doing what I’m doing now years ago—writing, dreaming, building.

God gave me a vision long ago to write and share my testimony, but I let fear and excuses slow me down. I told myself I needed to work hard, save money, then start writing. But I’m still in the same place financially—making more than before but still paycheck to paycheck and still fighting for the same dream.

But today is different.

Now I’m ready to live. I believe God is giving me extra time on my clock, and I want to use it wisely. I want the next 40 years to be full of joy, faith, and peace. I’m excited again. I believe this is my time!

God’s Promise for Every Season of Life

“Listen to Me,” [says the Lord], “O house of Jacob,

And all the remnant of the house of Israel,

You who have been carried by Me from your birth

And have been carried [in My arms] from the womb,

Even to your old age I am He,

And even to your advanced old age I will carry you!

I have made you, and I will carry you;

Be assured I will carry you and I will save you.”

— Isaiah 46:3–4 AMP

Read it here

This scripture reminds me that I’ve never been alone. God has been carrying me from the very beginning, and He’s not letting go now. Even into old age—He will carry and save me. That brings comfort like nothing else.

A Word to the Younger Generation (and to my younger self):

“Don’t let the excitement of youth cause you to forget your Creator.

Honor him in your youth before you grow old and say, ‘Life is not pleasant anymore.’ …

Remember your Creator now while you are young…

For then the dust will return to the earth, and the spirit will return to God who gave it.”

— Ecclesiastes 12:1–7 NLT

Read full passage

If I could go back and talk to my 21-year-old self, I would say:

“Don’t waste time in fear. Don’t wait to chase your dreams. Remember God now—He is the one who will carry you, protect you, and sustain you.”

Let’s Talk:

• In what ways do you wrestle with concerns about aging?
  
  
• How does Isaiah 46:3–4 speak to your heart?
  
  
• What dreams have you put on hold out of fear?
  
  

Drop a comment and let’s encourage one another. You’re not too old, and it’s not too late. God is still writing your story.